act blur live longer?

hahaha always have been thinking bout that phrase and well...
i think i cant act blur anymore... like seriously acting is really hard work...
but someone is taking it quite well... hahah! i dont know how that person does it but yeah

my conscience really eats me up when i start acting but yeah hahaH!....
maybe just maybe that certain person doesnt have a conscience but who knows right?
ahahah

anyways yeah well... will acting blur let you live longer? hahah
i dunno! ahahah but well... faking really sucks...
trying to be friends even more...

well... i dunno wad to do...
hahah thanks sharms for the
"forgive and forget"
but well... its hard especially after the things a person did sometimes...
i dont know for the rest but as for me its really hard...
haiz.... i really have my hand tied up...
i really have no idea wad to do...

trashing it out will just leave me trashing the shit out of...
and well... being an actor as i said above is really tiring!
hahaha... i really dunno!

life is hard... oh wait no its not...
its the people who are in ur life that makes it hard...
and not just the ordinary ppl the people who are the real actors!
the ones who can say one thing in front of you but behind you they may just be holding a knife right at ur back waiting for ur wrong move or just wait for that chance!
seen many and really cant take them...

why cant thye just get out of my life?
haiz....
being oblivious is just not my thing...