Well thought this day would never come but it did... sianess continues...

alright so well... chinese orals are over and listening compre is next in line...
hahaha wads there to like learn bout it? hahaha! i dunno! hahah
anyways yeah! hahahah! so well... thats that!
chemistry is being a killer man! i tell you ah! its like lots and lots of memory work! i cant imagine doing it with physics too! im just gonna die! hahahah! i tink! hahaha
anyways yeah! hahaha!

okay so lots of things have been on my mind especially like from 6+ onwards...
hahah... well for one marcus asked me this very simple question!

cos we were talking bout change for some reason and suddenly... he asked:

"Scott, have you changed?"

i tell you i was totally freaked out i didnt know how to answer him...
haiz... so i guess i have to think bout that!

then few other things happened along the way that really really affected me...
i guess i havent been thinking or something... i dunno!
but yeah!

have you ever had this feeling like a situation or something would never happen to you...
or
even the complete opposite?
that means you knew that that something was gonna happen but you just didnt know when?

well thats how i felt...
i tell you it was the most confusing moments when it strikes you!
but as usual i just kept my emotions to myself hahah!
stupid of me right... but yeah thats how i am!
okay okay so yeah i dunno wad to say now... my mind my heart and my soul are like mixed up and i think in the wrong places...
its like a mind heart soul rojak in me now... hahah! how pitiful!
hahaha being a mess aint gonna get me anywhere haiz...

PULL UP YOUR SOCKS SCOTT!
YOU BLOODY MORON GET OVER IT!

damn... i dunno what to do....
SOCCER... I NEED SOCCER BADLY RIGHT NOW!
DESTRESS!
GOD PLS MAKE A WAY!

hahaha okay okay since so many ppl have been bugging me on my tag box to update i shall! hahah
so well... this weekend has been a fast and well... normal one? hahah yeah!
with Os nearing and my chinese oral on this coming wednesday... hahaha
im feeling the pinch of anxiety and well... excitement...

lets start with saturday:
well... had to get up like super early can?
cos i had to be in school like a normal day timing for engliah prelim oral...
shall not dwell on that... ahaha
just know reading was crapped up but the rest was okay...
hahha thank God and Mrs Rama...
hahaha!

anyways yeah then took my time to go down to town for my usher team core team meet...
okay was suppose to meet but then.... like only half my core team turned up so... ahaha
yeah you get the point...
oh oh oh and we have a new usher VYLAN! hahah
at first he was kinda quiet kinda reserved but yeah!
talked to him and like tried to explain wad ushers do and is/are about...
hahha its so surprising that he is only P6 can? hahaha
anyways yeah! we have a new addition thank God! hahaha

okay so well... service was normal procedure... but only that we had 6 ushers...
7 after praise hahah! (wont blog bout this hahah)
so yeah God really spoke to me during worship... the song bout walking on water and all has yet again got my mind thinking...
this isnt the first time this week that God used the example of Jesus and Peter walking on water to speak to me...
i dunno why but this just stands out more than everyother thing that is said...
i guess God has a clear msg to tell me...

"sometimes... you have to step out in faith Scott! i know it maybe hard but sometimes you have to trust God so much that you know that in whatever obsticales and hinderences that may face you, I am always there for you... thru thick and thin... Good times or Bad times... You should know that I always cheering you on and bringing you true everything! Leave your boat behind and follow me... come to me... i have already took 99% of the way the other 1% is all you! its whether you wanna come to me or stay in ur security and safety which is it?"

it really got me thinking this few days... the whole week i think....
shall meditate on this again and again for the next week or so...

so yeah then when service finished... had to help the second service ushers put up some of the unit tags and all... hahaha
debriefed then it was off to lunch!
okay well lunch was okay i guess... heard MJ teasing Cheehwee cos Michael Owen is going to Man Utd! hahaha
then yeah lunched and left for the chalet...
had to skip unit shepherds meet and marcus's meeting.... haiz...

chalet was alright... hahaha fun at least... erm... it was cos it was my dad's company's 10th anniversary so kinda big thing! hahaha kinda cool lar they hired professional BBQ-ers and all! hahaha!
the cake was mega and there was a sound system enough to cater to the whole block...
not forgetting the alcohol hahah! i might have had a cup or 2 but i was okay lar it was diluted so not that bad! not like some of the adults who had 1 cup too many... hahah! never seen those who got drunk like that before sia! hahaha.... funny and also scary at the same time!
okay so lets see... there were 3 ppl who got drunk!

1. hahaha my dad's general manager (Singapore office)- hahaha he i think is the least drunk out of the 3 although he was walking unstablely and all can tell that he is still sane which is good hahaha!
2. the 2nd is also a general manager but from the KL office- hahaha just to say... he started drinking at 4+, 5 hahaha can you imagine? hahah! the sun wasnt even down yet... hahaha... so yeah when he got drunk it was like 8+,9 so yeah hahah! started shouting and screaming... he couldnt even walk properly lar and he still continued drinking! hahaha! and and and he drove to downtown east so i was so scared that he would try driving home from there sia!
   
3. the next was the most drunken one! wah damn jialat he reached the limit that he knocked out on one of the tables and the rest had to carry him back to the room! on the way to the room... he vomitted sia! everything came out! the wine... food and all! hahaha crazy sia! hahaha shall not elaborate anymore hehehe!
   

so yeah then reached home at bout 1245 plus... then slept at 1 plus! hahaha

Sunday:
woke up at 11 plus... hahaha kinda refreashing sia! although felt a bit light headed but i think i was okay! hahaha!
so slacked around at home till like 145 plus when i received a call from MJ... he was eating lunch so hahah went down to meet him and daryl then went to meet the rest at farrer park mrt...
so yeah hahaha then went home to get the ball and its back to farrer park MRT... when i reached they decided to go to farrer park field so just nice hahah!
yay! started first team... not the most ideal position but its a test ahaha!
so yeah had some tackles here and there but yeah! played when it wasnt raining so thank GOD! hahaha
erm... yeah so yeah the score ended with a 6-2 we lost! but its experience that counts...
we never expected to win so yeah! ahahaha!
just learn i guess hahah! so yeah finished the match and came home to sleep! hahaha!
now im here! hahah and not tired at all... sian im gonna die sia wad time will i sleep tonight? hahahah!
okay gtg now! hahaha
ciao ppL! tomorrow is another day!

never thought that this would happen to me...

hahaha this phrase has been used many times in life i bet for you guys out there too! haha
well... and many a times im always proven wrong...

i guess its human nature to think that "well... this would never ever happen to me" when we see something happen
and *poof* the thing happens... hahaha you may think how coincidental but i think otherwise...
anyways shall not go to that...

now i get why people get angry when ppl constantly to relax...
its just pure irritating! i get it!
so so so yeah i've got lots of things to blog about but well... somethings are better left untalked and unblogged about! hahaha!

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next word is 'clarify'

so well... clarify clarify clarify...
what else can i say bout this word? haha!
i mean like okay it maybe easier said then done but i dunno...
i mean like its scary not knowing the reactions that you may get from the people you are clarifying with but i dunno...
its really getting complicated...

so i really dunno!
bleah!

act blur live longer?

hahaha always have been thinking bout that phrase and well...
i think i cant act blur anymore... like seriously acting is really hard work...
but someone is taking it quite well... hahah! i dont know how that person does it but yeah

my conscience really eats me up when i start acting but yeah hahaH!....
maybe just maybe that certain person doesnt have a conscience but who knows right?
ahahah

anyways yeah well... will acting blur let you live longer? hahah
i dunno! ahahah but well... faking really sucks...
trying to be friends even more...

well... i dunno wad to do...
hahah thanks sharms for the
"forgive and forget"
but well... its hard especially after the things a person did sometimes...
i dont know for the rest but as for me its really hard...
haiz.... i really have my hand tied up...
i really have no idea wad to do...

trashing it out will just leave me trashing the shit out of...
and well... being an actor as i said above is really tiring!
hahaha... i really dunno!

life is hard... oh wait no its not...
its the people who are in ur life that makes it hard...
and not just the ordinary ppl the people who are the real actors!
the ones who can say one thing in front of you but behind you they may just be holding a knife right at ur back waiting for ur wrong move or just wait for that chance!
seen many and really cant take them...

why cant thye just get out of my life?
haiz....
being oblivious is just not my thing...

well today can be described with 2 words....

SHIOK and FUN!

or

TIRING and ANGER-FILLED!

so take your pick... hahaha which one you wanna hear about
then come ask me... hahahah!

emotions are natural but you are just a faker...
i dont even know if you are a friend... or just a person who uses people.
i really dunno why i became friends with you in the first place...
perhaps it was a wrong decision.

I wanna be UNSTOPPABLE!

well well... 4 days have passed so quickly! hahaha
and i've slept so little but done so much! hahaha!
well... its been great the whole 4 days i can say proudly!
hahaha!
day 1:
although i came late in the night and all... i still manage to catch the first teaching!
thank GOD! hahah!
so its kinda hard to stay awake that day since i was up at 745 but i still tried and God gave me the strength!
hahahah so yeah although on the schedule it said Lights Out at 1115 but i couldnt cos i had to meet and plan somethings i had to do the next day! hahah
the anxiety was killing me i tell you! its my first time ushering for camp... and im an usher team leader can you imagine double pressure! hahah! but all is good! hahah!
me and mj spent like an hour with nicole at macs talking bout day 2 ushering and then went back to get some of our stuff to plan!
and then back again to do somemore planning! haiz... hahaha! but you know thats not the funniest thing? hahah!
the funniest thing was that MJ ate during the meeting with nicole then again later on when we went to macs to plan...
hahaha Ming Jang I KNOW WHY YOU GETTING FAT ALREADY! hahah
haha so that is like the end of our night! it finished at like 2 odd and by the time we reached our chalet it was like 230? hahaha siao sia!

Day2:
hahahaha this is the big day so woke up like super early! 645 siol! hahaha!
hahh took a bathe then headed with MJ to eat breakfast! hahaha
still trying to tighten the loss nuts and bots but it was okay lar hahah!
manage to do it during breakfast haah! then was joined by some of the ushers like eline, Siyin and Vanessa hahah!
yup yup! okay okay! then headed for QT! hahaha first time leading QT during camp so kinda weird since the group was kinda big and all! but with God i did it yay! hahaha!
so yeah me and Mj with the aid of Carmen shared! hahaha! then followed by Rebecca, Vincent and Eline! hahaha!
so yeah then prayed and went to the tent! hahaha
wah i tell you my heart stop sia! hahaha the moment we step foot into the tent...
the stage manager shouted "ushers open door!"
i was like huh? wah lao! hahahah then followed by me shouting USHERS QUICKLY GET TO UR POSITIONS! hahahah!
then open door! hahaha that was the havoc i tell you! hahaha

Next was lunch break and back for workshop!
so well... nothing much to say just that the second time round we ushered it was much better maybe its the fact that we ate our food in the hall together but still hahah!
i was so tired i tell you! hahahah anyways not the point hahah! started off pretty well this time round hahah!
ushers all knew where to go and wad to do! hahaha
they even remembered my "3 Be-s" hahahah!

1. Be Firm
   
2. Be Alert
3. Be Daring!

hahahah! and they remembered hahah! and they did exactly wad the "Be-s" were there for... yay! hahaha

next was battle of the sexes! hahaa
i think i was super high that time lar hahah!
since i was sitting on the girls side but... hahahah i was rooting for the guys! hahah and guys came on top! hahahaha yay! hahaha ushering the ppl in was fun hahah! so yeah it kept getting better and better hahah!

next another teaching!
hahaha this was i guess the awesomest one hahah! cos everyone although was tired hahaha!
we still served to our best hahaha! yay! hahahaha
then we were like playing around with the man and woman who represented the guys and the girls hahahah!

hahahah see! hahaha this is my girlfriend!
doesnt she have the shape? hahahah! sexaye huh?
she is one in a million! hahaha she is the model for those toilet signs? hahaha you know hahah!

hahaha then this is my 2 model friends hahah! yay! hahaha!
we look cute together huh? hahah!
okay that look on my face was becos someone came in and the door was to my lefT! hahaha!

hahaha then we took a picture hhahaha a group picture! hahahaha wanna see?

see this group of ppl are the greatest group of ushers i have served with second to my normal service ushers yo! hahahah!
they are full of enthusiasm and spirit! hahaha
THANK GOD FOR THEM! hahaha!

hahahaa then came another photo

hahahaha see! wad did i say? they rock! hahahaha

oh oh and met carmen at night to talk... hahah! plus got locked out of my room! hahahaha lucky i took a shower before leaving the room! hahahaha! but well... MJ didnt

Day 3:
it passed pretty fast i tell you! hahah teachings sermon...
then lunch... then games then teaching again i tell you it went like that! then it came to leaders appreciation!
wah i tell you that totally struck me in the hearT!
God was pulling at my strings and my tears just started watering! hahaha
i couldnt help it! it was so... hahah! thinking bout it now im gonna have one of those moments! hahahah
okay okay anyways yeah i was so... when bertram prayed for me... the watering started...
then when i prayed for marcus... hahaha it was the waterfall time i tell you! i couldnt control just how many times ive let him down! i just couldnt take it!
the host really said it! haiz....!
i promise myself ill nvr let him down again! that was near the night so yeah! wah i tell you lucky it was at night if not everyone would have seen my face!

then that night marcus took me and gab to see the HK deligates!
hahha they are a bunch of cheerful ppl i tell you!
hahahahaha they are so fun loving! hahaha
they rock! hahahaha
so yeah!
then we stayed till like 4 in the morning! killer right? hahh!

then left for the chalet to get some sleep! hahaha!
and to our surprise! donavan was there hahah! its been such a long time since i'd got the chance to talk to him so yeah! hahaha

talk until i knock out sia! hahahah!
hahahahh! he was playing the guitar right at the side of my head somemore hahaha its a wonder how i slept hahah but thats not the point! ahahah!

okay okay so yeah
DAY 4:( photo taking day)
hahahaha to put it short and simple...
had lots of shots with alot of ppl! hahaha!
quite cool ah! hahah this is the first camp that so many ppl wanna take photo with me hehehe!
okay okay gtg now hahah! parents are back!
hahahaha

CYA!
bleah! hahah
sorry for being too wordy! hahahaha
but i have lots to say!
BYE!

Tired From The Late Nights And Early Mornings....

oh well... im back from camp...
its been a really taxing 4 days but it was fun!
hahahah! well... found a person who i think will be able to take over my post but that really
depends if the others think the same way...
but anyhow!
i feel so much better after sleeping for like 4 hours after i got back from camp...
although i had to go eat lunch with family like after the first hour...
and was feeling kinda grumpy...
hahahaha it was a good time spent lar hahah!
visited Toys R Us hahah!
going there really bring back memories!
anyways yeah!

really seee the enthusiasm and the heart that the current batch if sec 3s are putting in...
so i think they will do a good job!
hahahaha terence trained them well! hahahahah!
okay okay so thats that! hahaha
really enjoyed the company of my friends and partmates hahah!
gtg now! cya ppl! hahahah!